I m SICK of ALL THESE!!!!!!!!

Hi, long time no see.. did not miss you at all But i believe that every time as long as i want to say out loud something but cannot in the reality... one of the way it is.....u....


Does people change? How? Good people to Bad people? or Bad people to good people?
i dont know all these, as long as whoever around me are always happy in a good way, its fine though....
How can u be so mean? i mean u!!!! seriously.. she wanted to tell someone, but she think it just wont work at all...
so.. fine.. 
U are the one who always asked others go and get a life, but.. can u just look at yourself first!!! 
Do u have a life? 
U are the one who always asked your friend go die, what if they die????
Who can actually tell me what will happen tomorrow??? 2012 is coming??? or tsunami is coming???
Had u ever think of all these...??
Trying to help u when u felt like killing urself... like how u help her... 
So finally here are the effect of helping someone she care:


You dont understand, how stress am i...
You would not understand how was it...
Others are different from me,
Others are better, not like u...
I dont want to argue with u anymore...
A hand closing a door with a 200percent of power..."BANG"


she got no brain to think? or she want to try to close the door with a different 'tune'? 
I know, Maybe she like some of them... Wanted to get attention from all of them?  
SHE DID!!!! SHE REALLY DID!!!! 


How could a person treat others so well...
but when facing her just like facing a person who just murdered her?
Talking to her just like talking to someone who just bitched about her?
Did she? 
Always "BANG" a door with that tune.. 
Is that respect? What a 'respect'.....
What kind of attitude on U?
DO u know what she want actually? Not anything... but a truthful heart...
Thats all!!!!!! Isn't that so easy? 
I m sorry, if u found is hard? maybe...
Is this what they called a former prefect in secondary school?
WTH!!!! Not the first time...once a day, balloon will burst...
but.......... dont be stupid or fool anymore... just.....


Without saying anything..  time is the best thing to decide something u couldn't solve... 
Let it flow naturally... without controlling anything... Do the best for everyday is the best way to treat yourselves and others... !!!!!

My 19th birthday

My birthday was easy and simple as ABC...
Y do i said that? 
Spending time with family and friends during birthday.. Enough right? 
No need big celebration, one night spent together, ENOUGH for me....
I was satisfied with all the day during my birthday.. Thanks again for those who wished and gave me present!!
I really appreciated them, I Love them too!!! 
I love u guys!!! I meant it!! U guys will always by my side when i need u guys!! 
Thanks you soooo much!!!!

Misses YOU!!!!

what will you do when u miss someone? 
call them? find them? or what?
well.... i found that if a call, does not enough for me to cover up the misses...
Always be with them, is the only to cover my misses...
I know it does not happen always... bt... if i had a choice, i would like to always by their side...
But from the start of it, i never choose to be....
i choose to study far away...so...
no choice... be grateful about what u have now... this all i could say about.... =)

Regret....

Have you ever regret for something?? of course everybody do....
After regret what u did or what u got, how would u change or what u can change? 
Sometimes is just not the right time to change, and sometimes u do not even know how to change...
Being punished? Being scolded? 
The lucky child would not get all these, but the unlucky child will... maybe...
Reality is horrible!!!! Hate Hate hate!!!! 
But......


No choice.... 

ARGHHHHH!!!! is the stupid cleanser or stupid pimple cream?

I woke up quite late today.. hehe.. at about 1pm, i know i know.. is too late to wake up.. 

on my comfortable bed, i was still lying down on my bed...

A sms alert rang, owh... is 'miao miao's message... asked me to hang out with her.. 

i reply 'yeah, sure'.. 

so i went downstairs to prepare everything.. 

I wonder why my face was so itchy... at that time, 'i dunno, and i dun care.. i m gonna be late to fetch miao miao...

after i dressed up myself.. 

my face is getting more itchy made me couldnt stand anymore.. & i went in front of my mirror... 

AARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! OHHHHHH NOOOOOOO!!!!! OOOOMMMMMGGGGG!!!!! 

MY face!!!! whats WRONG!!!!!??? 

My face was all red!!! quickily find my mother let her see what is going on.. haiz..

SNAP...... have to see a doctor.. lol....

A cream and medicine to treat my allergy... hope my face can get well soon.... =(

What u did... But..... What u get at the end?????

Something i did before..But.. What I get back at the end???
Not saying anything.. Because she cannot say anything at anytime.. 
It is wrong for her to say anything due to the relationship between blood? 
I don't even know what am i talking about..Speechless.. 
For her, does it matter? For someone who really care? It is matter! 
I found out something.... What thing? 
Something that i shouldn't say out loud? Something i shouldn't care? 
Yeah.. Why should i care? Why am i doing all these things? 
At the end.. No point..... At all... 

A trip that gave me a deep impression...

Went Vietnam during Chinese new year.. Is the 1st time i leave home during cny.. Thats cool enough.. haha.. Our tour guide from kl was quite nice though.. our tour guide in Vietnam was so funny all the time.. He is a pure Vietnamese. He know how to speak chinese! He said that is quite hard to learn chinese, sometimes when he pronounce some words, we all laughed at him because he got a different slang which is so weird and sounds funny.. haha.. We had a lots of fun there.. 1st time travel outstation with my relatives.. I think all of us were the most funniest and active visitors.. haha... My brother, My cousin and i took a lots of picture there.. Although the scene is not really nice.. but after added our pose.. haha.. seriously.. we 'coloured' our picture.. were so interesting.. haha.. Create funny, cool and nice pose.. haha.. just like doing our life style diary.. hehe.. Hope to have this kind of trip again next time.. I really enjoyed it.. 

 My family and I..  location: Ho Chi Ming Airport

The 2nd day..Location: Hanoi

Our tour guide from Vietnam.. Xiao ling..

Xin yi and me..

Show time!!! haha...

Others family travel with us as well.. 

Fresh Fish !!! still alive that time.. all of us scared they will jump... 

So hard and tired.. Imagine the person behind me had to take us for 2 hour journey all the way.. Omg.. so pity them.. we did not help a lot, because the weather is just so cold.. my body all shivering le.. lolx..

They called there couple Island.. hu hu..

The last picture in Vietnam with my family.. hehe..

Look at the back of us.. is Vietnam mee hun.. Had a try of that mee hun.. Is just cost us bout RM5. But can make our stomack full.. hehe..Is really delicious..especially  took in a cold weather.. haha.. 

Thats it... Our journey just took 5 days.. not feeling very tired already, because we all had fun and we enjoyed it.. haha.. 

HELLO, MR BLOGSPOT.. DO NOT GIVE UP!

Such a long time did not appear or even take a look here.. Saw many of her friends always upload their life and status recently, but she just do not wan to post anything.. wondering why.. 


Quite busy recently.. mainly activity- STUDY.. Had actually put effort on it.. but her result still not good.. Knew that she did not put enough effort on it.. She should put more, more and more than another person instead of blaming others.. Because she already knew that she is not that smart compare to others student.. She better wake up and do what she need to do as time is limited for her.. 


Although have a tons of work to do..
Do not give up
Although have a lots of stuff to do..
Do not give up
This is the only way she can say and do.. 
DO NOT GIVE UP!!!! 

Back to ktj again...

A start of new term...
Hopefully will be fun...
Home sick nw.. bt is ok, will be back during chinese new year..
haha... will get angpau.. haha..
And 1 more thing, GAMBLING!!!! haha... this is the only chance for me to gambling.. hehe...
By the way, gt schoolwork wait for me to do...1 month only... cant wait for chinese new year..hahaha...

My new hair style for chinese new year! wakaka..

Anyway, doesnt change much oso.. is just straighten it.. hehe..

Back to kemaman...

Finally... Back to kemaman... 

Just met wit my friends.. Felt so good...
Bt still, some of them still haven back yet... 

Cant wait to see them... Sitting alone nw... 

Thk of them nw... haha... 91 gengz...

Thk of them too... KTJ gengz... hehe...

Nothing to write nw... will leave kemaman 2morrow oso... 

Outing..

Wake up at 8am.. after preparation, took a taxi from batang benar, took ktm...

Yeah, our destination, Mid valley.. hehe... 

Mid valley is like the 2nd home for ktj...

Y i said so? because us the nearest shopping centre for ktj student to go...

Many of them went there for window shopping, house trip and so on.

Yesterday, me and my friend..Tracia, Namirah, and Adeline went there together..

Of course nt left Sylvia.. she met wit us after her dentist appointment.. 

At 1st we were planning to watch the new released movie, Twilight New Moon.. 

Bt the end, we chose to shopping around there.. Girls interest..

                                        

Me and Namirah

Gether Gether.. Thats whats we always said...

An Hour pass by.. I had a sudden shock by my brother

he was telling me that my parents and him will met me at mid valley soon...  

I was really happy to hear that when he told me that..

Such a long time i haven meet my brother and my parents...Miss them so much.. hehe...

Had lunch with my friend at mc donald, as usual , mc chicken...

I cant wait for my family to come for me when i was told that they cant even find the parking lot..

Because yesterday is holiday, (hari raya haji), so many people going there..

Finally.. I met my family...I dont care what will happen, 

As i saw my mum, straight away run towards her, and hug her...

They were so hungry because they havent take their lunch plus they stuck in the car parking lots... 

We had our lunch in Manhattan Fish Market (if i nt spelling wrong)

Our lunch is really nice but also quite expensive.. 

Is the 1st time i having meal there.. haha... 

We went for shopping next.. hehe.. 

I bought a shirt from Romp.. i like the shirt... 

I was wanted to try more clothes there.. but i had to go back that time, because my friend they all wanted to go back already... 

I really enjoyed spent time with my friend and my family yesterday... hehe..

yesterday was a nice trip for me.. because i spent most of the time wit my family yesterday.. hehe..

We talk so many things when we meet each other.. hehe...

Especially my brother... We talk so much...Play so much there.. hehe..

Another thing, four more days...I m free from ktj for 1 month dy...

Yay!!!!!!!! Hooray!!!!!!!!

miss my friend from kemaman... goin to meet them soon... hehe...

After goin back kemaman, i thk i will be back to YC life again.. hehe...

Cant wait to go home.....

Yay.. 10 more days....

10 more days, i am coming back...
10 more days, kemaman, i m coming..
10 more days, no jail life for 1 month dy...
Mee mamak, Tom yam soup, roti canai..etc.. i m coming..
Dear 91 gengz and all my friends at kemaman, i m coming..
Coming home, coming home to see u again
Coming home to u
With the stars as my guide, i will be there as ur side... 
I m coming home...

When there are many things to do, really make u miserable..

Musical mix will be on 31 october..
good news.. will be a nice musical..
bad news, we have to rehearsal everyday...
There will be something bad comes to you while something good to you
We had our full rehearsal yesterday..
yesterday is public holiday, so we had 12 hour rehearsal at TNH...
Really tired and sleepy after the rehearsal..
My voice is become worst 2day... Bt had some chinese tea just nw..
Hopefully my voice had no prob on that day...
We had put a lot of effort on this musical
God, pls help us to finish this musical perfectly...
And we really need more practise to make sure that there is no mistake on that night..
I m suffering nw with my IELTS test..
I m so scared that i cant get a good grade for my IELTS test...
I have so many things to do, is make me more miserable..
I hate having exam! I knew that nobody will like exam... haiz..bt we cant change to what we want..
Is already fixed...
As time pass through,
15 anniversary, Internal exam, interact club activities waiting me... Huh...
When can i stop this all kind of activities?
But i love these all activities..
I can gain many benefits through all these activities..
Hopefully i can cope these all things perfectly...

Lovers...

Must a lover meet everyday?
Must a lover talk everyday?
I do not know the answer...
And i dont know why i will wrote this,
just something happen, and my mind suddenly told me to write this..
What is lover?
I dont thk everybody can answer me this question...
Even i cant also...
Bt, what i think is....
Lover must be understanding each other...
Lover mush tolerate each other..
There is no gap between each other...
Lover must hav a trust between them, if nt they wont be a nice couple..
Lover had to face a lot of problem...
If they cant face them, they wont be a nice couple..
For me, understanding and trust is the most important for maintain their relationship
With these, they can stay longer their relationship..
If one of them lost the trust for him or her, they wont stay longer..
If someone love u, and he/she didnt talk with you, doesn't mean that he/she didn't care about you
He/she maybe just don't like to express their feelings through mouth
But if u trust him, maybe he/she will do something at your back..
Maybe u won't know wat they do for u..
But u must try to understand him/her to know wat they do for u actually..
Some of the lovers didn't do anything... That is bad..
A couple have to sacrify some of their things..
Just because of their lover...
They must sacrify something in their life which maybe is important or not important
To show their love to their only lover...
I don't know what i say is correct or nt
But this is just my feeling through this...

How if see ur lover every moment?

They always met in school..
They have three same classes..
They had their meal together everyday..
They always walk together..
They have fun together..
They looks so sweet when being together..
Imagine.. How sweet they are?
sweet than honey? no.. more than that, of course..
Imagine.. How if can see ur lover every moment..
How sweet of a couple can be seen when they together..
Can oso be seen in their heart..

Music Trip

1st time i join music trip from our school

1st time i go Philharmonic hall

1st time i went out wit Alexandra and melissa

Because of this trip, i didnt hang out wit our geng in ktj at mid valley

Although this is nt the 1st time i go for a orchestra concert
But, i really have fun this time..
Although is just a short trip..
Bt i really enjoy that day... haha..
Is on sunday, 1200pm..
We went there by a van... it takes about an hour to reach there..
1st time i saw mr stuart drive..is unbelievable that he could drive a van.. haha...
what can said about his driving skill, not bad...hehe..
haha..
what can i say about this music trip.. is.. nice.. haha..

i really enjoy it.. haha..

Alexandra with me

Melissa with me..

Looks so happy ya.. haha..

After attend this nusic trip.. we have to go back.. nt even can stay longer at klcc.. too bad... But we had bought kfc while on the way go bac our school.. hehe... after we went back, having our dinner at imran house.. cool man.. 1st time i eat at guys house.. haha..

How if ur dreams and wishes comes true?

Everybody do have at least a dream or wish.. What will happen if our dreams and wishes comes true?

He, is a kind, friendly and caring person...
She, is a cute person...

He, is a likely person...
She, seldom talk to other people...expecially guys...

he had wait for chances for so long time...
He dont know wat she thk about him..
He try to be perfect in front of her..so thats he dont have any shortage...

She doesnt realize what is goin on between them..

On the 10-10-2009....

A very very very very special date for them...
Everything had changed...

He get as what he want..
She know what she want..and what she do actually...
She didnt as before..she had changed...

As before, her life, study, eat and sleep...
Nowadays, her life changed...study, eat, sleep, tuck shop, socialising...

Her life become more colourful because the person beside her...
His life become more interesting because he have her beside him...

Their life changed because of each other...
Although dunno until when this can stay...
Hopefully this can stay for a long time, and wish for 4ever also...
Wish they can happy forever!....

Love...

What is Love?
I dunno how to answer what it is..
Wat i know love is someone that will sacrified for someone...
Love not just exist between couples, it exist also between freinds and family...
Love from family is the warmest...
Y  i say so? I feel that... maybe i cant feel yet what is love between couples..
Sometimes i feel that love can be so complicated...
Love can make a lot of changes that u never realize...
Love can make a person feel so down
Love can make a person happy
Love can make a person do a lot of things that they were not suppose to do so
Love can make a person do something foolish things
Love can make a person cry, can make a person laugh
A simple word like this could make a person seriously changed....
Can make ppl drowning...or disappointed...
Thats call love....

I really miss my home...

My heart suddenly told me that i really miss everything in my home town...What should i do? I cant do anything... Is my mother's birthday 2day... I miss her so much.. Happy birthday mummy! I love U... So sorry about what i had done before to u... Seriously, I m not a good daughter, always nt hear ur advice, always said the bad things on u... Really sorry, Mum... U always the best in my heart..  Love u all the time, Mum!
Since i was went national service, i just realize that how much important my family are.. From that time, i just realize that my home was the safenest and the best in my world... After joined national service, i realize that my family was the most important in my life, no matter how good v are in our personality, I still feel that no such things that is important than my family... They let me feel the warm of having a family.. NO matter what happen to me, they always will be there to support me, although they are nt beside me... I know how much they love me... Suddenly my grandmother pass through my mind... she was also a caring person... Although she was nt here anymore.. bt i really miss her so much... I love u... Still remember when she was suffer when she had cancer... On that time, all of us were so down 4 that moment that she suffer... Until nw, I actually still cant believe that she is nt here anymore... I cant understand, Y sometimes when i wan something that is nice, nt everything i can get them all the time.. As time pass through, i just realize that we have to catch up every moment when u 2gether with ur family and friends.. U will regret if u didnt do that... I had regret so many times in my life, I dont wan regret for anything in my life anymore.. Hopefully things will become as well as i wish...

Sometimes we will feel tat they were doing the wrong things on you... Bt it is nt... We cant thk that... They are the only who is the most important in our life, We cant have a sweet family without them... what they did is just because of u, is for u... We must appreciate that we have a family that really cares 4 us..they will give their hands whenever we are having any problem... and also our needs...

Compare to the orphan, We are much better than that... We have foods that we need..Education... and so on...nobody will much better than them anymore.. They can even sacrified their things and trying to help us...whenever we need... Family... somebody doesnt care bout tis word at all, cox they dunno the important to have a good family... Bt for me, Family is everything.. Y i say so? Because i think that family give us choose the rite way, they give us have a comfortable life... haha..it is so much important to hav a good family...Wealth is not important, the most important thing is the relationship between us n our family... haha... it is hard to have a good family?

No, is nt... I have a good family as well.. I really love them..

they let me know how is important to have a good and sweet family...

They teaching me wat is right, wat is wrong.... hehe... Really miss my mama, papa and my brother...

Tats y i m here...

Brother, u such a very good brother for me...

although we will have some quarrel... Bt it made us more close to each other...

I Love U, Bro! haha..

Mum and Dad.. I miss u sooooooo much!!!!!

haha... thx for all the things tat u all made for me..

I will never forgt it..

haha..I LOVE U GUYS!!!!