I m SICK of ALL THESE!!!!!!!!

Hi, long time no see.. did not miss you at all But i believe that every time as long as i want to say out loud something but cannot in the reality... one of the way it is.....u....


Does people change? How? Good people to Bad people? or Bad people to good people?
i dont know all these, as long as whoever around me are always happy in a good way, its fine though....
How can u be so mean? i mean u!!!! seriously.. she wanted to tell someone, but she think it just wont work at all...
so.. fine.. 
U are the one who always asked others go and get a life, but.. can u just look at yourself first!!! 
Do u have a life? 
U are the one who always asked your friend go die, what if they die????
Who can actually tell me what will happen tomorrow??? 2012 is coming??? or tsunami is coming???
Had u ever think of all these...??
Trying to help u when u felt like killing urself... like how u help her... 
So finally here are the effect of helping someone she care:


You dont understand, how stress am i...
You would not understand how was it...
Others are different from me,
Others are better, not like u...
I dont want to argue with u anymore...
A hand closing a door with a 200percent of power..."BANG"


she got no brain to think? or she want to try to close the door with a different 'tune'? 
I know, Maybe she like some of them... Wanted to get attention from all of them?  
SHE DID!!!! SHE REALLY DID!!!! 


How could a person treat others so well...
but when facing her just like facing a person who just murdered her?
Talking to her just like talking to someone who just bitched about her?
Did she? 
Always "BANG" a door with that tune.. 
Is that respect? What a 'respect'.....
What kind of attitude on U?
DO u know what she want actually? Not anything... but a truthful heart...
Thats all!!!!!! Isn't that so easy? 
I m sorry, if u found is hard? maybe...
Is this what they called a former prefect in secondary school?
WTH!!!! Not the first time...once a day, balloon will burst...
but.......... dont be stupid or fool anymore... just.....


Without saying anything..  time is the best thing to decide something u couldn't solve... 
Let it flow naturally... without controlling anything... Do the best for everyday is the best way to treat yourselves and others... !!!!!

My 19th birthday

My birthday was easy and simple as ABC...
Y do i said that? 
Spending time with family and friends during birthday.. Enough right? 
No need big celebration, one night spent together, ENOUGH for me....
I was satisfied with all the day during my birthday.. Thanks again for those who wished and gave me present!!
I really appreciated them, I Love them too!!! 
I love u guys!!! I meant it!! U guys will always by my side when i need u guys!! 
Thanks you soooo much!!!!

Misses YOU!!!!

what will you do when u miss someone? 
call them? find them? or what?
well.... i found that if a call, does not enough for me to cover up the misses...
Always be with them, is the only to cover my misses...
I know it does not happen always... bt... if i had a choice, i would like to always by their side...
But from the start of it, i never choose to be....
i choose to study far away...so...
no choice... be grateful about what u have now... this all i could say about.... =)

Regret....

Have you ever regret for something?? of course everybody do....
After regret what u did or what u got, how would u change or what u can change? 
Sometimes is just not the right time to change, and sometimes u do not even know how to change...
Being punished? Being scolded? 
The lucky child would not get all these, but the unlucky child will... maybe...
Reality is horrible!!!! Hate Hate hate!!!! 
But......


No choice.... 

ARGHHHHH!!!! is the stupid cleanser or stupid pimple cream?

I woke up quite late today.. hehe.. at about 1pm, i know i know.. is too late to wake up.. 

on my comfortable bed, i was still lying down on my bed...

A sms alert rang, owh... is 'miao miao's message... asked me to hang out with her.. 

i reply 'yeah, sure'.. 

so i went downstairs to prepare everything.. 

I wonder why my face was so itchy... at that time, 'i dunno, and i dun care.. i m gonna be late to fetch miao miao...

after i dressed up myself.. 

my face is getting more itchy made me couldnt stand anymore.. & i went in front of my mirror... 

AARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! OHHHHHH NOOOOOOO!!!!! OOOOMMMMMGGGGG!!!!! 

MY face!!!! whats WRONG!!!!!??? 

My face was all red!!! quickily find my mother let her see what is going on.. haiz..

SNAP...... have to see a doctor.. lol....

A cream and medicine to treat my allergy... hope my face can get well soon.... =(

What u did... But..... What u get at the end?????

Something i did before..But.. What I get back at the end???
Not saying anything.. Because she cannot say anything at anytime.. 
It is wrong for her to say anything due to the relationship between blood? 
I don't even know what am i talking about..Speechless.. 
For her, does it matter? For someone who really care? It is matter! 
I found out something.... What thing? 
Something that i shouldn't say out loud? Something i shouldn't care? 
Yeah.. Why should i care? Why am i doing all these things? 
At the end.. No point..... At all... 

A trip that gave me a deep impression...

Went Vietnam during Chinese new year.. Is the 1st time i leave home during cny.. Thats cool enough.. haha.. Our tour guide from kl was quite nice though.. our tour guide in Vietnam was so funny all the time.. He is a pure Vietnamese. He know how to speak chinese! He said that is quite hard to learn chinese, sometimes when he pronounce some words, we all laughed at him because he got a different slang which is so weird and sounds funny.. haha.. We had a lots of fun there.. 1st time travel outstation with my relatives.. I think all of us were the most funniest and active visitors.. haha... My brother, My cousin and i took a lots of picture there.. Although the scene is not really nice.. but after added our pose.. haha.. seriously.. we 'coloured' our picture.. were so interesting.. haha.. Create funny, cool and nice pose.. haha.. just like doing our life style diary.. hehe.. Hope to have this kind of trip again next time.. I really enjoyed it.. 

 My family and I..  location: Ho Chi Ming Airport

The 2nd day..Location: Hanoi

Our tour guide from Vietnam.. Xiao ling..

Xin yi and me..

Show time!!! haha...

Others family travel with us as well.. 

Fresh Fish !!! still alive that time.. all of us scared they will jump... 

So hard and tired.. Imagine the person behind me had to take us for 2 hour journey all the way.. Omg.. so pity them.. we did not help a lot, because the weather is just so cold.. my body all shivering le.. lolx..

They called there couple Island.. hu hu..

The last picture in Vietnam with my family.. hehe..

Look at the back of us.. is Vietnam mee hun.. Had a try of that mee hun.. Is just cost us bout RM5. But can make our stomack full.. hehe..Is really delicious..especially  took in a cold weather.. haha.. 

Thats it... Our journey just took 5 days.. not feeling very tired already, because we all had fun and we enjoyed it.. haha..